Four more months left of chemotherapy

I can't believe I've taken this drug for 20 months.

Will I get an award when this is all over? Will I get a ribbon or a certificate of achievement? How about a t-shirt that says, "I was on chemo for 24 months and all I got was this stupid t-shirt"?

The chance at improved health and an extension of life is all I really want. No need for fanfare.

I wonder what it will be like to take this pill for the last time. It will be sometime in April 2011. If I was in front of a calendar I'd post the date but you never know if you'll be held back a week.

Four more months. And then what? How I feel when I am off of treatment? Because I can never take this drug again. I will have maxed out.

If anything changes in my brain (in a bad way) my only options will be more invasive. And I don't want that.